Still feeling pretty crappy. I feel so alone even though someone is around me 24/7 and I hung out with friends (the ones who know nothing about what demons lurk within me), but it still feels lonely as soon as the attention is turned away. And that itself, is tricky. I want attention, NEED attention, but if I perceive it as being the wrong kind then it has the reverse effect and I freak right out. I feel bored all of the time, yet the littlest amount of responsibility makes me overly stressed and running around like a lunatic. I guess I can't have my cake and eat it too, but I want a sliver, damnit!
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